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TheBean · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 12:05 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

The amnio results came in - there was nothing wrong chromosonally with the baby. It was a little girl.

honeybee · Queen of Imperfection Joined: 20 Dec 2002 Posts: 3163

I've had the "post a reply" screen up for a long time, staring at the blinking cursor and am at a loss for words.

I just feel such sadness and sympathy welling up inside and I don't know how to express that in this medium. If we were neighbors I would be weeding your garden and sweeping your driveway...helping in any way I could without being a pain. Here, I have nothing but words. And my prayers.

Big hugs to you.

Rebecca_R · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 12:24 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

Oh man, I'm so sorry. Crying or Very sad

I don't know what to say either. Are you okay? What's going on with you? How ARE you doing these days?

DietCokeHead · Queen of Imperfection Joined: 29 Apr 2002 Posts: 3805

Oh, Eileen. Crying or Very sad

I am so sorry. ((((((big hugs)))))))))))

TheBean · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 12:48 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

I am just kind of in shock right now - not that I wasn't expecting to hear this exact same thing - but hearing it finally brought the reality home. DH asked if I wanted to have him stay home - I sent him back to work.

Anna chose to have a hissy fit over the Christmas pj's I made her this morning, shortly after I got off the phone with the doctor and it was all I could do to just stay calm and put her in her room for a time out without breaking down crying myself.

I guess Melissa if we were neighbors I would probably join you weeding or something. I feel the need to "do" something, but really can't concentrate. Usually I clean in times like this - but physically I can't be doing that today. My prolapse gets better, and then it gets bad again - not NEARLY as bad as when I first posted about it - but annoyingly uncomfortable. Today it is bad again, so I can't really do much. I should be sitting/resting.

Becky, I don't know how I am doing. Okay I suppose??? I don't know. I'm incredibly sad...sadder now that when I first found out the baby died I think. maybe because I know it was a little girl and there was nothing wrong with her? I don't know.

TheBean · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 12:50 pm Post subject: Re: The doctor just called

Scout · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 1:06 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

Eileen, I'm just so sorry and sad for you. I know this must be so extremely difficult right now. I wish there were something I could do.

Jessica · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 1:06 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

I'm very, very sorry for your loss. Crying or Very sad

TheBean · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 1:11 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

i dont' know...i just wish there were a central place that I could go and have a big ass drink, eat nachos, cheesecake and chocolate with a bunch of people KWIM?

I feel lonely - well, mainly because I'm here alone - and I don't want to be. But its not exactly like I can pack Anna up to go hit a chocolate martini bar with me. Shocked

But the good news is - I'm not off my rocker. I read that story about the woman that murdered that poor pregnant woman and stole her baby. WTH? and I did see my sister's new baby this past weekend and I was fine with that - I didn't sob all ove the child's head or anything.

I don't know - I kind of wonder if I would feel better if I were pregnant again. maybe not. It is just so sad. Sigh. This sucks. I wish I had nachos.

Jessica · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 1:17 pm Post subject: Re: The doctor just called

TheBean · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 1:20 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

You can pack up Anna and get yourself some bad-ass nachoes though.

True. I find it interesting that of all the days to stay home, I picked today. Anna had a horrid cough this morning/last night. Now she hasn't coughed all day long and seems fine.

The doctor called me here at home - so I think this was all part of His plan that I be home to hear this news. He also called right when DH came in the door. Anna is watching a movie - some toothbrush movie. Confused

I think I will just brew a little pot of tea and read my bible and just grieve a little. If I had a garden I would probably go weed or play in the dirt and let my mind wander - but it is too darn cold out!!!

I'de attempt sewing, but would probably sew my finger or something. Surprised

DietCokeHead · Queen of Imperfection Joined: 29 Apr 2002 Posts: 3805

Eileen- Send Bob (that's his name, right??) out to get your nachos and maybe a big ass Margarita to go with it. Not to hijack your thread, but I think it is normal to feel sadder after some of the shock wears off. That is what happened to me too. I had a couple of really depressed weeks between Thanksgiving and now, after I thought I had come to terms with things.

Did you give your baby a name? Not that you need to tell us that. Some people feel like that helps though.

TheBean · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 1:53 pm Post subject: Re: The doctor just called

DietCokeHead · Queen of Imperfection Joined: 29 Apr 2002 Posts: 3805

That doesnt sound stupid that you didnt choose a name. If I had any idea if mine was a boy or a girl I still might not be able to, it makes it more real and painful I think (for me) . All your name choices are beautiful though and I hope you get a chance to happily name a future baby if that is what you choose to do!

Sewingsiren · Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 8:28 pm Post subject: The doctor just called

I am so very sorry. God bless you and your family.